“You want to know how I think you are free from sin? When you are no longer running away from God because of your sin, but coming to God and drawing closer to him; that is how you know you are free from sin.” – my friend Angela
This piece of advice helped me get out of my ditch. Before I had been climbing one side only to fall back down to the bottom and I never felt like I was really getting anywhere in my spiritual walk because of my sin. I realized that by running from God, I was negating all of the victories God had given me and placing myself at the bottom again. Progress could not be made. I was not allowing it.
Not everyone out there views masturbation as a sin. And I won’t go into that in this particular entry, but for me there was no question about it. It was not beneficial to my walk with Jesus and I felt the effects of that long before anyone ever told me that it was or wasn’t a sin. I needed freedom.
But even with my friend’s advice I still wondered sometimes if I was really free. Yes, I was no longer running from God, but it wasn’t like I was never tempted from that day on let alone never gave in to my temptations. I gave in. There were more victories than losses and I was coming to Jesus with my failures, but I still felt a little bit discouraged.
Would I ever stop failing?
I spoke to one of my pastors about this subject of freedom and what he told me finally gave me some real peace of mind.
When I talked to him, I hadn’t struggled with masturbation for quite some time, but I was still wrestling with the idea of what freedom really meant. It couldn’t just be running to God with your sin instead of away, could it? There had to be some kind of change in your life, right? There had to be some kind of difference!
I had it backwards though.
“The truth: In Jesus we are free. You were free long before you felt free, because you belonged to Jesus. Walking in freedom is different than being free. You were free; the prison doors were opened. You need to believe what already has happened to you.” – Pastor
In Romans 6 and 8, Paul talks about freedom quite a bit, but this verse stuck out to me in particular.
“But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life.” – Romans 6:22
My pastor was right. I had always been set free. I just needed to accept my freedom. Only then could I reap the benefits of being made holy.
So simple, but yet so difficult.